Forgiveness……..at some point but not now.

You speak and I watch the ice on your tongue form into dangerous crystals.  Your words slice through layers of armor I wore to remain protected.  Eyes like black holes, inhaling me, falling and there is no floor.  Where is your heart, I have tried to find it.  Where is your soul, I wanted to touch it.  Stand beside me, let me feel your presence without sound.  Steady your fists, surround me only with best intentions.  Fight for kindness, struggle to survive yourself.  I needed you in my life, a child needing nurture.  Find serenity in what you have left.  I will meet you on the other side, I will look for you, and find you waiting to be who you were meant to be.